tHe DaY i BecAme a HyPoCriTe.RoBoT (H.R)…
At times, I need silence and solitude in my life. This is where I acquire my sedative. The open-ended flow of silence and spontaneous ideas and songs was the most refreshing worship I have ever experienced in my life. A blog therapy will do me good too…
Sometimes, my mind strays; reflecting on my place in the natural world, thinking about what past and present has thought me, searching the answers to my question about life’s meanings.
I’m a rebel. I’m sorry. I don’t think it’s right to be conveying to my bright. But I have a point. Thus, this makes me a rebel WITH a cause…
It has been almost two years since i’ve become a Human Resource (HR) practitioner. We tend to get all the blames. Yes, it’s tough, but I guess it’s a norm & indeed the burden is still bearable. As all this while, I take this as a challenge for me to grow stronger everyday…
A few incidents recently became an eye-opener to me, Namely, 1) Written feedbacks from PETRONAS People Commitment Survey 2007 (PCS) and 2) Briefing on Code of Conducts & Discipline (COCD) organized by us—HR focal person (so to say)
1) Written feedbacks from PCS 2007 -– Firstly, thanks for the constructive criticisms conveyed. & yeah- indeed we do have lotsa deficiencies to improve. Also, truly appreciate it very much for the credits given and for recognizing our efforts all this while (considering WE are simply an undervalued component of many organizations). Just to trigger you further, let me share with you some of the comments which could either be sort-of funny or worst still — an utterly vile slap in the face for us…
Q: Dissatisfactions dealing with HR
A: (Please refer below)
“……In terms of HR in LCAD- useless, there is no need for it.” (ouch!)
“Oh well. Life - there are always ups & downs. I just flush the negative down my system and seek solace in the positives :)” (I agree with you. Thank God for not elaborating further !)
“Never mind laaa, no body willing to listened what group NENT opinion is..” (Nah, we do! *wink*)
“HR OVERALL: PHONE CALLS SHOULD BE ANSWERED WITHIN 3 COUNT OF RINGING. FORWARD PHONE LINE TO OTHER COLLEAGUE IN THE EVENT OF OUT-OF-OFFICE, OR OUTSIDE OF DESK COVERAGE AREA. OR LAST BUT NOT LEAST IF THE ABOVE IS IMPOSSIBLE/ NOT PRACTICAL, HR MAY WANT TO TAKE INTO CONSIDERATION ### HR SERVICE HOTLINE” (Sir, yes sir! Sounded really furious with the Caps Lock on! Oh well~)
2) Briefing on COCD – We have invited a speaker from Employee Relations Department, HRM HCU to talk about the misconducts and PETRONAS guidelines which staff should adhere to. On some terms outlined, It was such a debate between the audience and the speaker. And, believe it or not, It hits me right there that I was never meant to be among the HR panel sitting in front being mean to people just because the Policy says so. Not to say that I’m a traitor, but to me, rules are meant to be broken –depending on your conscience and logical ground. (OK–so that makes me a lousy HR Personnel afterall!)
Sometimes policies are followed without due regard to the practicality or the "human" factor of staff. Sometimes not strictly observing policy won’t necessarily lead to abuse and can lead to a more beneficial results and motivated staff. Although policies and procedures serves as effective guidelines, probably some flexibility will help as not all HR related issues have a "codified" solution to it.
I know very well that as an HR personnel, we should be the voice of the Management. But that does not necessarily mean that we do not have our own stand. But it is a sad case, where as the policy enabler, we have to put the Company’s interest beyond our own personal interest. Although we may disagree with the policy, we have to put our own personal opinion behind whenever we communicate and enforce the policy to the staff. If not, we will breach our code of professionalism.
A sycophant. A hypocrite. A robot—whatever you want to call it. Constantly losing all touch with one’s soul…
As much as I love reaching out to people and witness them develop and become successful in the future (an ultimate satisfaction for me as an HR personnel), thou I shall not allow myself to become a goddamn hypocrite.
How ironic it may be, I’m still thankful for the opportunity I have been given all this while to offer help and healing for the sake of staff’s welfare (if there are such occurrence).
Now, in this moment of puzzlement, I become lost in thoughts over why something is the way it is..and why something has “always been” a certain way..and if I do not make an attempt now, this moments in life will be too often pass by, only to come back later and say, “Yeah- I should have realized that before…”.
The question now goes, is it too late already?
Hmmmm……pergh~ enough confusion already…..Allow me to recap a wise statement quoted from our anonymous staff via his/her survey done earlier. (Dude, you’re the man!)
“Oh well. Life - there are always ups & downs. I just flush the negative down my system and seek solace in the positives :)”
Uncategorized | Comment (0)
REST IN PEACE (R.I.P)
“Bismillah hir rah man nir rahim…..
Mahasuci Tuhan yang Engkau bersifat dengan Baqa’ dan Qidam,Tuhan yang berkuasa mematikan sekalian yang bernyawa….
Mahasuci Tuhan yang menjadikan mati dan hidup untuk menguji siapa yang baik dan siapa yang kecewa…
Mahasuci Tuhan yang menjadikan lubang kubur sebesar-besar pengajaran untuk menjadi iktibar kepada orang yang lalai, dan sebesar besar amaran kepada orang yang masih hidup…
Ingatlah! Bahawa sekalian mahluk Allah akan jahanam dan binasa,melainkan zat Allah Taala. Ialah Tuhan yang Mahabesar kuasa menghukum, manakala kita sekalian akan kembali menghadap hadirat Allah Taala…
Wahai JURIAH BINTI NGARIP , wahai JURIAH BINTI NGARIP, wahai JURIAH BINTI NGARIP, hendaklah kamu ingat akan janji-janji Allah yang mana kamu ada bawa bersama-sama dari dunia ini…
Sekarang kamu telah menuju masuk ke negeri Akhirat. Kamu telah mengaku bahawa tiada Tuhan yang disembah dengan sebenar-benarnya melainkan Allah, dan bahawasanya Nabi Muhammad itu Pesuruh Allah…”
Till now, the recital of Talkin by the Imam for the death of my beloved Nyayi is still humming in my head….*sob*
Yes, I’m still in the state of shock (please somebody poke me & wake me up!) & Yes it’s shown that death is something we cannot expect; and when it has come, we are totally not ready for it……
As other family members & friends gathered together with full of hope & blessings as to celebrate the departure of both our kind-hearted aunty & uncle to Macca to perform their Hajj. They-who have contributed a lot in taking care of Nyayi all this while. They-who took one step closer to Allah’s house where in essence, hajj is muslims’ evolution toward Allah; their return to Him…
Without realizing, the power of God Almighty- Ya Allah, our dearly beloved Nyayi has also returned to Him about the same time as aunty & uncle left. Allah can give and take things easily whenever and wherever. I love my Nyayi and I pray that Allah will accept her, and I humbly request that prayer be made for her…
As I observed closely her lifeless body being washed and buried peacefully in the “liang lahad”, It makes me wondered a lot about Nyayi’s undying love and affection… I never realized how much I loved her till she was gone… I loved my Nyayi, not for what she had because she didn’t have much but for her love and unselfishness. She gave me a lot more than material things, she gave me her undying love. I will be forever grateful and thankful that she was my dearly beloved Grandma…
It’s true…In the slightest way-which it is in their nature; human beings-want to be remembered. To know that, even for a little while, their presence creates an affect among others, no matter how frail it is. Thus giving a meaning to the life they live in…
Indeed, nothing last forever. Humans live and die. Yet as long there are those remember, those who held on to the memories of loved ones, thus immortalizing the image they bring…
Nyayi, you are not truly gone; as long as there are those who still remember you, you will live on forever. We will always remember you. May your soul rest in eternal salvation…
Amin~
Uncategorized | Comment (0)dEaDLy siNs…reVeaLed~
I continue my procrastination with blogging, and that certainly needs some serious explaining to do…Yeah, & I bet I might give you a potentially unwanted excuses, excuses & more excuses…Let’s just say that the root cause of me being sluggish and inactive in the demonic world of blogging is just lethargy, in a chaste and simple sense. And I believe lethargy has a cyclic dependency on the state of mind (or a ‘depressing’ state of of mind shall I call it!).
Yes, work has been occupying the bulk of my time and mindspace over the last few weeks. Indeed my life revolves around work, leaving home at the break of dawn and only be back after dusk. Been so busy all day that I can’t even sit down and blog (until now). I deserve a breather anyway. Not to mention that it hasn’t been worth diddly to me over my personal life too…
I’m sorry if I may ever neglected my loved ones (family,him,friends). I just don’t mean it to be that way. In the name God, believe me..i’m trying my very best to slice & dice my time here…or at least attempting to have a balanced life..It’s not that I’m being selfish for prioritizing my career just so that I can achieve my personal ambition( and of course, financial independence!)…
I just hope that all “me-amore” will try to understand that this may not be a permanent personal life goal for me; pouring my blood, sweat and tears for the sake of financially-stable life, but as the time goes by….Insya-Allah if I may ever settle down, building a family of my own……I may realize in that moment that my life’s ambition is actually my devotions toward religion & family……& in that moment also, I hope.…my priorities will eventually change…
Even now, I’m trying my very best to juggle my time between my career & personal life… The weekend, quite simply, has come to be a time to recuperate, feeling wonderful on Saturdays and only dream about how Monday mornings will never come, not to mention my duty towards house chores, to have the perception of catching up on reading (which usually is so minimal!), and most importantly to spend quality time with my family and friends.
Family and friends seem to occupy that cherished spot within my mind, and certainly do give me the moral and logical highground whilst I grumble about work loads and even at times (or shall I say, most of the time!) about office politics…
Yeah- I’m just sick and tired of office politics: negative, hurtful & destructive. “A sick environment” indeed, which encourages the worst in all of us. Where every task is a battlement, every colleague is a potential enemy, and almost everyone is a fake, sucking up boss’ arses…
Brings me to this article I come across in CNN by Rachel Zupek entitled,
"Seven deadly workplace sins".
Pride…envy…anger…greed….sloth…gluttony…and lust.
As you read and think about each one of these…you can probably think back at different times in your career when you have seen colleagues or bosses in your company commit to any one or a combination of these sins. .Yeah-I bet, it happens!
& Aren’t you feel disgusted by it?
Here’s the article’s take on these workplace sins…
1. Pride
Despite any help they received along the way, time and again, people take full credit for their accomplishments in the office, thinking that personal success will fast-track their career.
The sin: "What often goes unrecognized is that people around, and especially below, the serially solo-successful resent the ego-centricity, and may actually begin to actively undermine that person’s efforts in the future."
The salvation: "A dose of acknowledgment of and appreciation for one’s peers and subordinates, so they may share in some of the glory, can go a long way to foster one’s long-term success."
2. Envy
It’s OK to acknowledge another’s achievements, but lamenting "what should have been yours" can be destructive and adversely impact your own ability to focus on current job tasks.
The sin: "Allowing yourself to be overly envious of others in the workplace can sabotage your self-esteem, which is one vital characteristic every successful business person shares."
The salvation: "Rather than being envious, let the accomplishments of others become motivational fuel for your fire in working toward your own successes."
3. Anger
Anger doesn’t benefit anyone in the workplace — it only damages your reputation, credibility and professionalism.
The sin: "Those prone to angry outbursts rarely get promoted; they are seen as being poor leaders who cannot inspire or motivate others."
The salvation: "It’s fine to feel passionately about your job or a project at hand and to disagree with others, but learn how to channel those emotions into actions that will work to your benefit in the eyes of others — especially your superiors — rather than against it."
4. Greed
An employee’s selfish desire for "more, sooner" is what motivates many workers. While these folks may do well in the moment, they won’t be prepared to take things to the next level.
The sin: "Taking this notion to the extreme can and will be self-defeating as core values become misguided and life becomes unbalanced in the process."
The salvation: "The road to success requires a long-term approach in all aspects of one’s job duties. Those laser-focused on quick, short-term gains may do well in the moment, but will be ill-prepared to take things to the next level."
5. Sloth
Indolence gets you nowhere in life. Laziness in the workplace will have you sitting idle, watching others surpass you in success and authority.
The sin: "Simply put, complacency and laziness have no place whatsoever in the workplace — especially for those with high aspirations. Expecting one’s past achievements and successes to carry them forward in their long-term career is imprudent."
The salvation: "Treat every work day and every project as if your job, and your future at large, depends on it. It very well may."
6. Gluttony
Too much focus on only one facet of life, like work, is a recipe for overall failure. Make sure you’re ready — professionally and personally — to take on new and bigger challenges, for which expectations are also bigger.
The sin: "Many individuals move up the corporate ladder so fast that they actually end up failing as a consequence. More isn’t always better — especially if you’re not ready for the challenge at hand."
The salvation: "Achieving career success also includes maintaining a life balance, and a misplaced professional desire can create a backlash both at home as well as amid peers for your perceived obsessiveness."
7. Lust
The old "grass is always greener" adage applies to the workplace as well. Spending your time focused on others’ work achievements rather than working to further your own is a sure-fire career killer,’’.
The sin: "Spending an inordinate amount of time fixated on what you don’t have rather than what you do will foster a bad attitude and negative overall demeanor."
The salvation: "One’s overall ‘presence’ in the office plays a big part in who gets promoted and who doesn’t. No matter how ambitious, it’s prudent to be ‘present’ and make the most out of your current position at this moment in time."
This kind of stuff just pisses me off. I’m not a slacker. I do a decent job. I refuse to be a part of this. Leave me alone and let me do my job.
Growl~
Uncategorized | Comment (0)