wE siNG. wE daNCe. We sTeaL tHiNgS.
You bet i stole this from someone…someone endowed in fact…brilliant~
Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up
If it’s a broken part, replace it
But, if it’s a broken arm then brace it
If it’s a broken heart then face it
And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine
Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I’m doing everything
Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you’re shocked it’s just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.
Yeah, everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold…
.: MuRmuR :.
Published…Finally~
I’ve been putting this post on draft mode for quite sometime, actually…
Why?
I guess because I’m beat!
I’m bled dry by the amount of work i’m piled up with lately. I try to give myself a little creative time to boost my spirit, but there are either interruptions or i start so late in the day that inspiration escapes me.
With the recent price hike; of fuel, parking, food, decent apartment at Klang Valley area…err, “duit hantaran”? *kidding!*, i’ve decided to change my lifestyle in order to cope with the inflation. Of course, it is easier said than done…
One of my attempts is to commute using public transport. Ain’t no fuss about it. Been there. Done that. Looking at the bright side, it has been a great workout for me as i’m able to work on building muscles to combat dangling fats on my drumstick (Note: Stash that high heels away as flat shoes is the way to go!). I must say that my train rides have been rather “fascinating” especially witnessing people’s peculiar or rather obnoxious behaviour such as people snoring away whilst their saliva dribbling from their mouth, picking noses, scratching armpits, grabbing asses (or seats), or even lame attempts of tackling girls with the worst pick-up line ever, E.g; Stranger : “Would you like to go shopping for clothes this weekend with me?” (with a British accent-that is!) (wtf?) *hint hint, cuz!*. Well, as “fascinating” as it might be, most of the time, i would rather minding my own business; i.e: sticking my nose in a novel, scribbling or set alarm & doze off– as i keep on missing my station (it’s true. it has occurred before. many times in fact!).
When I realize that some where in the past 12 hours life has passed me by, time eluded me and i’ve come to a conclusion that adulthood is a conspiracy against us–grown-ups, to keep us so exhausted and insane that we can’t organize our thoughts much less a revolution. What my life has become is something no longer i recognize. Forgive me, for those who are affected by my life changing experience.
Well, everyone has a sad story to tell. I won’t deny the fact that some people grumble just to let things off their chest. I, for one, sometimes murmur despites my attempts to swallow hard just to keep me sane.
The thing is — Don’t get carried away. Don’t sweat the small stuff.
I guess, hurdles in life are a necessity. As you roll along through life, there are bound to be bumps in the road. Some of these bumps are small and you quickly roll over them and continue your journey. Other bumps are so significant that they unavoidably change the course of your path. We are sometimes derailed by the detours when they take us by complete surprise. Often these bumps have been there the entire time and we choose to ignore them… Until one day, we can no longer overlook them. The most difficult ones to deal with are the ones we least expect, the ones that find us. Those are the ones that are life changing.
This is reality. And reality is nothing but the truth.
Here i am, finishing my last sentence. Whilst witnessing light trails passing by outside the window on my train ride home. Just to keep me awake (just so that i won’t miss my train stop, AGAIN). And i ain’t complaining~
Life could be more fascinating — so they said. I’m just waiting for my time of comfort to come…
…in a lil’ bit… just be patient OK~
“ Question : Why is life all crazy like this?
Ketut the Medicine Man : Bhuta ia, dewa ia
(Man is demon. Man is god. Both true)”
- From the author of Eat, Pray, Love -
.: LiFe iS a WaitiNg GaMe :.
Patience is a virtue – as cliché as it may sounds like; I just have a great respect for old chestnuts. The reason cliché is repeated so often is because it is usually true; although sometimes it is just so frustrating to just keep waiting.
When you look around, it seems as if everyone has a significant other. Not to say that the single ones are not happy for those who are happily attached, not to say that they do not have other things to worry about, it’s just that it has been on their mind a lot and they can’t help feeling insecure about it. You have been searching high, you’ve been searching low to feel the completeness. Just make sure that your search is worthwhile; just don’t fall for anybody. Maybe if you keep walking (in the right direction), you’ll stumble upon it, somewhere and somehow in this place and time; Insya-Allah you will lose your worried mind.
I guess we are sometimes pressured by the environment. Yes, of course we are now officially an adult; with a full-time job, bills and responsibilities. So now what? What does that mean? Does that mean i should be moving out right away? Should i try to save money? Should i be married with kids already? If so, i am a little behind. Some days i don’t feel like an adult, but i can’t avoid the inevitable.
It’s gonna take me great patience to catch up though. I’ve been told that i need to change in order for me to embrace the adulthood. I must say that i strive to achieve the simplest goals or intentions based on my everyday life. I am constantly pushing myself not to be as much of a perfectionist. I really don’t want to spend the rest of my life sweating the small stuff. Life is too short for that. However, people say that i don’t take things seriously, instead i always put things in sarcastic kind of way. Pardon me, for being who i am. But most of it is really nothing for me to sweat over. Well, maybe i do need a reality check and realize that life must goes on. I am learning that other people aren’t going to change just for me. I just need to let things roll of my shoulders and worry about what is important in my life… at this moment; the welfare of my family, our health and well-being. I do believe in change. If I didn’t, i wouldn’t bother trying to change my own habits. It may take some time though.
All these things happen for a reason. At times we may feel that our hope is gone and we just can’t carry on. But i guess, life is just a waiting game. Just don’t go and throw it all away. We’ll get ours when the seasons change.
“We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand.” — Randy Pausch
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