.: BiLLy. eNcoRe :.

Keep running away, was never that easy.

This principle of law, makes him appear every now and then, whenever I try to forget.

I knew that the last glimpse of his face would hunt me until I saw him again, smiling, teasing away.

Savouring it, has left my heart pounding. Sugar rush– I felt the answering smile spread across my face.

It made me chuckle a bit, surprised by how time had changed the memory. The stress, the confusion. So much had changed…..And now I could craft a smirk, instead of frown.

That brief moment, lasted……only for a lil’ while.

Days go by. Like a dripping faucet in the back of my head– this memories, I could not shut off or ignore.

It’s bad for my health, I know. Addicted, I’ll trade my life for a box of conversation hearts with you.

I felt myself settling into another version of me, a little less responsible, betrayal of the heart. Someone who might, on occasion, do something really stupid for no good reason.

This Placebo Effect–is a real and powerful psychological response. With a small sip of icy sharped chocolate flavoured drink – this unhealthy drug I’m craving, when it touches the tip of my tongue, i let it flow evenly in my throat, swallowing it gently & slowly breathe out…

Ahh…this feeling…this aroma…this presence of yours….still lingers in my mind…

Intoxicating–this feel good factor. Possible for symptoms of serious illness could be masked by it.

Who needs abogus treatment or therapy?

When you can find comfort and solace through an abusive way instead.

If only I could find a way to keep you as my friend. And that’s it. Full stop.

Just spit it out, Billy. I know, deep down inside you have so much to say…

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